Decisions

I always find it very difficult to make decisions. Decisions that can affect the rest of my life. Pros and cons don't help much, these decisions have good and bad points. Advice from other people say to go where I'll be happy, or to take a risk. I honestly wish I knew what I wanted.

I feel like I'm on a swing in the park while the rain is pouring down on me. I don't move, I don't run for cover, I just sit there and think. I really want to know what I want.

If I flip a coin, would that fix all my answers?

I always find that I don't have enough time to do what I need to do. I hope it isn't because of laziness, but I SHOULD have enough time to do the things I need plus the things I want.

This decision should help me and make me a better person. This decision should make me a happier person, more passionate to do my job well, to actually believe in myself. I need to observe and see for myself what I will be getting myself into.

COUNTDOWN: OMG 11 more days!!!

I'm sooo not ready for this!!! I need to be confident in myself. It's all I need and all I want. I NEED THIS.

note to self: Keep praying..... and..... EXCERCISE!