Strong?

I'm not as strong as you think. This pressure is killing me. I'm having a hard time taking it all in...

Breathe in... Breathe out.

What do I want? I ultimately just want to be trained, to learn from someone. Don't expect me to be strong, to automatically know what to do, to be really good at this, cos I'm not. I'm not as strong as you think. I try to be positive, I try to be strong, but I'm not there yet.

There's a possibility I could be great at this, there's also a possibility that I would fail.

What to do.

I'm finding it very difficult to be positive about this.

Choices in life.

COUNTDOWN: 15 more days

Oh my. It's getting closer and closer. I have to prepare myself. I have to organize my life.

COUNTDOWN #2: 46 more weeks!

What have I done thats different? I TRIED being more positive, but no matter how hard I try, there is always something holding me back, making me want to run away and give up.

Any words of wisdom? none.

Don't give up. Hang in there! 4 more REAL weeks left! Then it's ALL OVER! another adventure will begin.

However challenging it may be, what is there to look forward to?

Maybe something good might come out of it...

I want to dance all my troubles away

and run away....