Northern stars

Listening to songs inspire me to keep going. During late nights working, I find myself listening to music and  find that it actually helps me focus and keep going. I was recently reminded about an artist I loved to listen to, an artist I've forgotten about. Toby Lightman is an amazing singer. She touches even the deepest part of my heart. In one song, she sang "...And I find myself in need of a pause, I'm not sure why, but I think that it's because of this desire to be what others want me to be, which is nothing close to me." This song is the perfect example of how I feel. This constant feeling of not knowing what I want, of never being ready, never being enough, always wanting to please people and the feeling of never being truly happy. I always find myself in need of a pause everyday at work. I never get that pause, I just have to keep going, keep moving forward. In the song, Toby mentions "But I'll see better when the smoke clears, when the smoke clears inside my head." I wonder what I should do to clear the smoke in my head. Should I leave and let go of everything I worked so hard for? The place that hurts me and challenges me everyday.  Or should I stay and give it a chance?


I have a lot of thinking to do.


Meanwhile, on the flipside... This blog I found is amazing! Mrs. Brown has cool ideas! I'm inspired once again. (Click on the picture to lead you to the site)



To end, as my title says it, I am hoping for Northern stars, pointing me on my way...


to where I'm supposed to be.