Lost

There are days when you just go through the motions of your life. I have those days. When I just have to go here, or go there, not stopping to admire the beautiful things around me. I have been feeling lost a lot of times. I'm losing myself, gaining pounds, forgetting my friends, my family, forgetting who I am. I need to get my life back and I don't know how. The only thing I'm looking forward to might not even happen. I'm really hoping it will. I know I can't expect to change if I go to a different country, but you never know, I might be able to decide wisely for myself for the first time in my life. I can't wait.